To you specificly

I'm not sure you actually read this anymore, I hope you do, but this is my open hearted thoughts about you and your current situation.

• I'm sorry, life can definitely deal from the bottom of the deck.
• I've always felt that stronger then our heart and sharper then your mind, that feeling in your gut is what makes the most sense and tends to be the hardest to follow.
• This is the one thing I wouldn't want to say to your face but, I'm happy it fell through, it never was right. It felt as if something was wrong from day one at least to me. Nothing comes easy, lest of all love.
• How dare you think you will never be loved. You will be, always, there is someone for you the problem is that God what's that perfect meeting to be well perfect, you have to crawl through the desert to truly appreciate the oasis.
• I found something an old friend had written about me in high school. Basically he talked about how great he thought I was, how "human" I was, how I was able to "empathize with any position." The one line that got me though was that he admired how I was achieving my dreams, that I had figured out what I wanted in life and was going for it. After I read it I was struck with the that of "Wow, how my life has gone 180 degrees." You of all people know how often I question where my life is going, and how often I feel like a failure. Life has a funny way of unfolding in a way we never thought possible. How the harder we work at figuring out our lives, the more our lives emerge.
• Come home, your wanted here, your loved here. We will all greet you with open arms, smiling faces, and happiness in our hearts.
  
• Lately I've been finding a good couple of days of reassessing, followed by a good cry and a drink, can do a world of good.

I can't really think of much else I will try tomorrow to create an email response but this is the most from the gut instant reaction and I thought I should put it somewhere.